Kahit ka pa kumamkam nang kumamkam, yumaman nang yumaman, maging makapangyarihan, maging iyo pa ang lahat. Pag namatay ka, kapirasong lupa lang ang kailangan mo kung saan ka ilalagay. Tapos sasabihin mo. "Ito ang aking lupain." Hindi totoo yan. We never own the land. The land owns us. Try dying and then you'll know that the land really owns you! In fact buhay ka pa nagkakalupa-lupa ka na! Subukan nyong maghilud-hilod nang kaunti. Kaya malaking industriya ngayon yang mga exfoliant-exfoliant. Because we're trying very hard to defy the truth that we belong to the ground.
Huwag ka lang maligo ng isang araw, amoy-lupa ka na. Totoo! Kaya sabi niya, "Ganito lang ba ang buhay? Parang walang katuturan." Kunwari pa tayong mga kapangyarihan daw pero hindi natin mapigil ang mga ulan at mga hangin. Matagal na tayong wala sa mundo, pabalik-balik pa rin sila. The meaninglessness of life's cycles proves people's seeming insignificance.
Para kang walang katuturan. Para kang nahulog sa isang malaking-malaking barko na walang nakakita sa'yo, wala nang makakaalala na nawawala ka. May dalawa o tatlong makaalala sa'yo na baka magpasalamat pa, "Hay , nawala, salamat! Kung nalibing ka sa dagat o kung saan man, hindi ka na makikita, wala na! At kahit na yung inilibing noong araw sa magagandang mga sementeryo, three generations later bubuldozerin na, wala na. Lupa na. Sabi ni Solomon, "Ganito lang ba? Meaningless!
Then he goes on, sa Ecclesiastes 1:12-18:
I, the Teacher, was king over Israel in Jerusalem. I devoted myself to study and to explore by wisdom all that is done under heave. What a heavy burden God has laid on men! I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind. What is twisted cannot be straightened; what is lacking cannot be counted. I thought to myself, "Look, I have grown and increased in wisdom more anyone who has ruled over Jerusalem before me; I have experienced much of wisdom and knowledge." Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom and also of madness and folly but I learned that this, too is a chasing after the wind. For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.
Ang sarap niyang basahin! So many lifetimes joined together, filtered by remembrance. Nuggets of wisdom. Gold nuggets of the years distilled by the filtration of an intelligent mind. Sabi niya, "Walang kwenta."
Ano pa ang walang kwenta? Striving against natural law. Striving against God's design. Sabi niya, yung baluktot hindi mo naman maituwid. Yung nawawala, wala talaga. Kahit anong gawin mo, wala. Kahit magpanggap kang nandiyan yan, maglagay ka ng litrato't kausapin mo, wala rin talaga yan. Sabi nga verse 15, "What is twisted cannot be straightened. What is lacking cannot be counted.
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